She is from Finland. A short woman with blonde hair. We are outside. Possibly flirtatious, possibly at the edge of the sea. She is lightly flirtatious with me. I kiss her slightly. She seems mildly surprised, though also amused. She says something like 'where did that come from?''.
Watching the television. I am there with Finnish Girl and others. Jim is amongst them. A children's TV show is from - possibly Finnish. It is a children's TV show. The title song is quirky and haunting. I realize that Finnish Girl played the main character when she was a child. I want to say this to her but am unsure. I do not say anything. I want to say that I know she is 'Ninainsauna' (in waking life this is the name of an Instagram account).
Finnish Girl goes to work - this involves walking down a walkway in some kind of industrial zone. Twilight again. A walkway which descends through factories. Something to do with seeds.
I have fallen out with one of the others. While I slept he shot me in the foot. I have no memory of this, until I remember one night I woke up in pain. I am furious. It was meant to be a practical joke on his part. I confront him. He is huge. An overbearing student mass. I shout at him that I promise I will get him one day. He is totally unconcerned with my threats. He is mocking
Because of this confrontation, I need to leave their house. I collect my things - some of them records. They are scattered in various rooms. I listen at the door - is this HIS room? Yellow light from the room. The sound of someone.
A group of people sat round in a circle. Am I part of the conversation or overhearing? A woman says to another it is a shame I will not be about as I have fallen out with the man who shot me. They are then talking about Finnish Girl. They say that she wanked off Jim one night but now regrets it. One of them says something like 'she definitely belongs to the ladies', meaning she is gay. I am devastated by both pieces of news.
In a train station, looking for my platform. I try to make myself feel better; at least I tried to kiss her. At least I tried. I cannot find my platform. I am outside the train station - the wrong way. The floor is slippy and treacherous
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