Work Insecurity (night of 09/03/2020)

At work - though the building seems to bear more resemblance to Abbotsfield Comprehensive than the call centre. Walking along a corridor with Clare H. Telling her that there is 'surprisingly little gossip at work'. I am to teach a number of new starters about the intricacies of lawnmowers. I am now walking along with Naomi - who is also teaching the new starters about something too. I look in the training room. There are a lot of them. The trainer seems to be teaching them maths. Can I really do this? Naomi walks into the room and starts talking with the trainer. I linger at the doorway, uncertain as to whether I should come in or not.

Underground Longing (night of 6th March 2020)

With R (whom I haven't seen since school). and her family - or at least her kids, one of whom appears to be pregnant themselves, despite being absurdly young. Other people are there too. I can't really remember who. A series of underground places - a subway, what looks like a car park (no cars?), a basement room. I have wondered ahead. I discover my voice has echoes. Looking down a long tunnel. White light from outside - the feeling we are at a beach - Brighton? Scraping my fingers against a wall to hear the echo this makes?
The feeling of a following morning. Sat on an armchair. R. comes in and sits next to me, drapes herself over me in an intimate fashion. Isn't she married though? She crosses her leg over my lap and I am afraid she might feel an erection. I put my arm around her shoulders, but feel this might be a step too far.